You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees for a hundred miles through the desert, repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves.

-Mary Oliver

Thursday 16 July 2009

I Heart Whales

This is the most incredible article.

Wednesday 15 July 2009

The slippery hours

Unstructured time has a way of slipping away from you. All of a sudden, I've been here for six weeks and have precious little to show for it, really. (I'm speaking on a personal level, here: as far as the show is concerned, I think we have a lot to show for our work.) Other than rehearsal, I have very little (nothing?) going on, and with dwindling funds has come a reluctance to leave the house. The past several weeks, it seems, have just sidled on past, more empty than full, with too much oversleeping, a decent amount of reading, and a ridiculous number of computer-based Monopoly and Risk games.

The work situation (or lack thereof) has been pretty frustrating... I did end up being offered that job at TJoe's but had to turn it down because the store wasn't even opening until the end of July. Similarly, I had an interview scheduled for an independent coffee shop, but then discovered the travel time was upwards of an hour, and they needed someone who could be there at 6am (and in a house where most of the inhabitants, yourself included, are rarely in bed before 2am, that could quickly become a problem). I've registered with two branches of the same temp agency over the last two weeks, but it wasn't til this morning that I actually got a gig. And thank goodness! It's only a one-off, and who knows how often these will come up, but even just to have ONE day of work under my belt feels like such a relief. How nice to feel like a productive member of society once more!

As for the show, it feels increasingly as though we're hitting our stride as an ensemble. It's still disconcerting from time to time what a different piece this is from what we started with, but I'm fascinated and enthralled by what it's becoming. Still don't know what it will look like at the end of the day, and still feel that this will be a further draft of a larger potential instead of a completely realised and finished product, but I'm very happy with the process and the results thus far.

So much so that I'm considering moving to L.A. properly in early 2010, so I can be a full-fledged member of this company.